Myself: “Two years Deepu, did u even realise that”
Me: No yar, it’s like a dream, I am still living it.
Two years have passed by and this is where I am, like never before or like ever before. What has made my life is not me or my pseudo ideologies which I create to pacify ‘myself’, it’s a person who crept into my life without my mind realising it and captured my spirit without my heart acknowledging it.
(Hope u remember this)
My wifey – my sundari – desire to my pleasure – beats to my heart – breath to my soul – peace to my mind – my B – and now mother to my son.
When that day of Feb I saw you in that train, something clicked inside and ‘myself’ was shouting on top of his voice “she is the one! She is the one!”, never did I realise that you would set pace to my life in a way I never dreamt of. Life has changed B since you arrived and it has changed for good. Two years of our marriage made me to contemplate on how useless I was and makes me realise how useless I am even now, but you my B have been there and made me utile. The subtle way in which you support me is registered in my mind and I know deep within that I can just play blind on you.
Myself: She sent you a cake at your office so that you can celebrate your second anniversary. What have you done moron.
Me: That’s so nice na. I just felt like giving her a kissy right then, but she was far. If she would have been just at an arm’s length kasam se I would have taken her breath away.
Myself: Sach bata, how did you feel when you got it this time.
Me: I started missing her, felt like on top of the world when all my colleagues started bestowing praises to my wifey. She is just too good, when it comes to making me feel better. Only she can do it the way she does it. I have been hard at times, even difficult but she has accepted me with elusive bearing.
B, do you remember, once I had said that I had ideas of being a tramp when I was still a bachelor and even after getting married I had never left off on that. Now after this time of togetherness I would say to you that even now I feel like tramping but this time I picture myself not alone but you and Ethan with me and if 2012 end of the world (EOW) happens I am sure we three will be the survivors of the disaster in a miraculous manner and we will be there in the Garden of Eden for a fresh start. Just in case the EOW is deferred / rescheduled I am sure we will go holidaying to a place like the Garden of Eden.
Thank you B for being with me.
PS: I know it took me 2 years to write something about you, but trust me I could not sum it up in just few words. You are more than what is said. I love you da B.
Things written are read, but those unwritten are felt.
-dpu
